Title: Let's pretend we're in love
Fandom: Merlin
Paringa : Merlin / Arthur,
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not belong Merlin Arthur is not mine, it belongs to me everything that is on their side dish.
Summary: Arthur has fallen in love. Merlin can not really be happy.
Notes: Thanks to all language in the world to mystofthestars , that was the beta so fantastic and in record time, and it was so nice to point out to a lot of duplication and missing commas.
This story is slash . Men with men, yes.
await only a sign
a fate, an eternity
and tell me how can I do to reach you now
found the river about noon Arthur was surprised and enormously that the water temperature was just right for a quick bath.
"Must be a sign of Destiny."
A Merlin came to answer 'Yes, if Fate is called Merlin' or 'Have you talked to a mica Dragon lately?', But instead smiled. He could be very gentle when Arthur was in obvious difficulty.
"See? It means that everything will be fine. It 's a Sign. "
Arthur raised an eyebrow," What sign? 'Wash'? "
"Could be. Did not you hear what you smell. "Retorted Merlin, and then blushed because he had the chance to see holding in her arms.
"At least my hair has a meaning."
"What this does not answer. So what? It's not that I can cut my hair now. "
" You let them grow again, they're becoming more like those of Gaius. "
Merlin opened and closed his mouth, unable to find a worse insult.
"I hatred. "he finally said. "Really. Tanto. "
Arthur laughed and lightening in a movement took off his tunic and trousers and ran towards the river," Who is Gaius comes last! "
Merlin looked at him, happy and calm and was not as bright as ever court and rarely outside, and swallowed.
"I - I go by horses. I make the second round. "
Before turning had time to see the smile away from Arthur turned into a grimace.
"We really believe in what you said earlier?"
ridden by a little 'more two hours and according to the map were only two days on horseback.
Merlin looked surprised, "What stinks?"
Arthur looked up at the sky "that the stream was a sign of Destiny."
Merlin bit his lip "was marked on the card Gaius ... ".
"This know. As if I let you decide the direction without checking. I said to the hot water. Or, boh, other things happen sometimes. Like snakes Valiant leaving at the wrong time, the chandelier falling on the witch, this sort of thing. "
Merlin watched him closely for a long moment, the beating heart pumping blood away from the crazy brain, trying to figure out if he suspected something, or if it was an innocent question.
When Arthur returned the look with pride embarrassed when he did not know if it was making ridiculous, Merlin realized.
For an instant the weight that he took from his heart seemed to linger. He felt like being disappointed that the other had not understood a thing again, then the relief came as usual. Arthur could not lose, could not, and if he could remove him inform him of his magic ... was not willing to take the risk. Not now. He just wanted a little more ... 'time.
smiled "Maybe Fate loves you."
'If fate is called Merlin' completed within himself.
After another hour of boring and painful to the horse, stood in a copse so that Arthur and Merlin could hunt something make sure you have the legs yet. According to the calculations of Gaius were bypassing the Mountains west of Kay, and the daffodils they approached every change of shade.
"If destiny wanted me really well," muttered Arthur back with a hare, "I would find a deer already cleaned behind the first tree."
"If you really wanted good Destiny" corrected Merlin "Do not put your life in danger every - say two days? And therefore even mine. "This is what we really believe. Somewhere inside him still rocked the dream of many years of peace and prosperity without ever having to look at Arthur thinking here, this time I really lost.
Arthur shook his head seriously, "If I were a peasant like you, perhaps -".
"Hey!"
"No, seriously. Those in power must demonstrate the ability to do what he does who protects him, and much more. It used to be strong evidence to show.. "
"Testing continuous ? Even your father at some point he stopped and withdrew from the front line. You have riders on purpose. "
Arthur's eyes darkened and Merlin wished to withdraw everything, but did not have time even to apologize.
"My father," Arthur began with the air of one who has thought deeply "He has shown all what he could, and then was given a sign. The greatest test of all. My mother died and he was able to still be the great king that everybody knows.. " On this
Merlin would have to say a lot, but knew it was the huge screen behind which Arthur hid the inexplicable death of his mother and was silent.
He saw that Arthur raised his head and pointed to the horizon beyond the treetops, lost all his thoughts, and came up to press against his shoulder, trying to keep the attention on him.
"We will wait a sign then, is not it? "he said, with just a bit 'of melancholy.
"I'm bored."
Merlin Arthur looked worried. Usually, 'driven out of boredom' in the personal dictionary of Arthur Pendragon was tantamount to 'Embarrassed / uncomfortable / authorized physical pain and / or psychological Merlin'. However, remained silent, because he was afraid that this time the dictionary was wrong and the true meaning was' embarrassed / uncomfortable / authorized physical pain and / or psychological Merlin to avoid the lack of distraction force me to think of something that does not want to think about.. '
"Tell me about you and Gwen."
'Can you be more stupid?' Merlin thought. He sighed. "The great love story? What we try to deny both about three times a day, that the period of Lancelot would devour my heart? ".
"That." Arthur Agreement.
"What do you know of a story that does not exist?"
"She'll like it. It 'pretty. In a way stuttering and too morbid against Morgan. If I were you I'd be jealous. "
" I'm not a jealous type. The whole story of her and a beautiful and brave knight who was obviously attracted to and which I was a friend would make you ring a bell. ".
Arthur remained in a thoughtful silence for a while and I hope with all Merlin himself had not said anything that would link up with another rider.
"Lancelot was beautiful, eh?" He finally asked, Aton.
Merlin shrugged, uncomfortable "It was ugly."
"Mh." Arthur said, and urged the horse to go even faster.
Merlin was forced to keep to avoid slipping down. "Anyway, you should not joke about Gwen. I seem to remember someone here thought marry her and not me. "
" I do not ... shut up. "
" Yes, well, whatever, I think he would ever do. Lancelot really liked very much. And there's Morgan. "
Arthur turned around just to look at" What do you think you would say if he knew how happily gossiping about her? "
" Nothing. " Merlin muttered trying not to look too guilty "It 's too nice a person to think something bad about someone."
"It' s a miracle that she and Morgan as they go along."
Merlin morse a lip, concentrated. Morgana and Gwen had seen together, safety in the fresh move when they were near. "It is a miracle. And 'there are people who just ... fit. Without trying, without difficulty, only Fate .... "Suddenly and without reason
Arthur left the reins with one hand, and leaning back grabbed the hand of Merlin and carried her on his chest, holding under his plan.
'Oh.' It was the first thing I thought Merlin. And then 'I can hear him breathe'.
rode well for the rest of the day.
The night came too quickly, and found them with the usual hare and the usual camp fortune. This time, however, Merlin was happy and confident and her magic softly lit all around, warming and softening the air and making me want to laugh.
"Tomorrow Now we get to the lake, and then you take the remedy. Not excited? It seems absurd that so little lacking. E 'was ... "he paused to look up a word that would make Port Arthur the idea but not to another nervous breakdown ... exhausting."
Arthur smiled at the corner of his mouth "Eat your hare. "
" When I want salad. And radishes. And fennel. And celery. And spinach. All cooked with mountains of spices. And then I want some honey and a bag full of buns and potatoes, and I want - "
" Becoming obese. "
Merlin raised an eyebrow," It 's very unlikely. You, on the other hand, with the constitution - "
" Merlin. "
" I'm not saying you're fat. It's not that you're fat, you are ... is that large? "
" Wide ? "
Merlin could not help laughing expression disgusted and offended the other. "Large get the idea. With those shoulders and chest that, as long as you stop for a moment and eat something more che – ”
Fu costretto a interrompersi, perché Arthur gli lanciò una testa di lepre cercando di prenderlo in viso e fece appena a tempo a scostarsi.
“Ma fai schifo! E’ un animale morto!”
“Farò un editto reale per costringerli a tirarti pietre quando ti metto alla gogna.”
“Morirò impietrato !”
Seduto accanto al fuoco, Arthur lo guardò esterrefatto per qualche secondo prima di scoppiare nell’unica risata vera da quando erano partiti, tanto che fu costretto to keep his stomach and threatened to end in the flames.
Merlin rose with a gesture of annoyance, just to hide the urge to smile, and went straight to spread blankets on the floor. "I hope they laugh you go through something. Good night. "
Arthur went back to sit with difficulty, wiping her tears with the back of the hand. "Tell me ... please, tell me what you know they say stoned!"
"Of course I do. I've said it on purpose. "
" Ceeerto. "
" Goodnight. "
The sizzle of fire accompanied the rustle of the grass and the breath of Arthur now more calm, and just felt that Merlin was able to relax his eyes closed.
"Sleep here?"
Arthur's voice reached him just as he was about to slip into sleep. "Mh?"
"I said, you sleep there?"
"Why?" Churches just a little 'smarter, blinking.
"You're in my seat." Oh. That's because the covers looked like The hotter, he must have the wrong side. She allowed herself a sigh idea of having to slip out of that nest warm and sleepy.
"You can stay." Continued Arthur, Merlin, and if it had not been paying attention would have lost the note uncertain.
shook his head. "In my colder and is harder, you're not used. Wait, "she yawned," Now I get up. "He closed his eyes
to gather strength to get up really, but when he opened them, Arthur was a few inches from his arm, crouching, looking at him with the same eyes of when he tried to make it do something without ordering. A look at very rare.
"Wait." She whispered, still looking hard. Merlin nodded, surprised, and after a while even Arthur returned with the other blankets and lay them all in order to make room for two, then took off his heavy jacket and slipped by. "Do you mind?"
His voice was hoarse and gave off heat and it was glued on him immediately, without even groped to ignore it, the chest so much criticism against the back of Merlin.
Merlin took his hand and put it on my heart, intertwining with his. She fell asleep as soon as closed his eyes.
Waking at night and find him Arthur was no longer just a novelty, but Merlin still held his breath. Arthur was the largest of its arms, and what he still weighed around over the ribs, and he was uncomfortable and to stop, but he had no intention to escape. With a happy sigh, settled down slightly, just backwards.
Then the hand of Arthur grabbed his shirt.
Merlin's heart rose in her throat.
"Sleep?" Arthur murmured, his lips on the line of his shoulder. His voice broke the silence so suddenly that for a moment Merlin seemed not to recognize it. He always had that tone lower than his, but was camouflaged by the proximity. Merlin if she felt him slide.
Arthur's lips opened just on her skin, leaving a moist almost by accident.
"No."
Arthur around more against him. When there was no response, he pressed his lips into a touch firmer. Then he stepped back a few inches, and made him again. Then again.
Merlin slowly release the breath, many small tears while the other came his jaw.
"You tell me," murmured Arthur, "If you want to stop me. I do not want ... "
Merlin did not know if he wanted to stop him. He did not know if it was stop him, but he remembered how good the last time, whispered the name was not his and that he had done wrong. How did you respond?
"Merlin ..." said Arthur, completely on his throat and neck.
Merlin was not stupid and feel the difference with the previous time, and somehow the problem was really the difference. It had been given a choice, and this experience meant that anything would come out would have been his fault.
He opened his mouth, but the hand of Arthur began to descend , heavy everywhere, even if only touched the tip of your fingers.
touched his life, even through the cotton and the navel, and he was forced to hold their breath, a little 'off for a bit' to, gods, allowing him to get off. In fact, Arthur came down and stood still, filling his hand with his erection. Merlin breathed violently, arching suddenly, every nerve on fire.
"I do not know what ..." Arthur murmured against his neck, then bit him and his hand shook. In the last moments
still really polished, Merlin felt something push against the top of his left thigh, and he realized with a shudder that it was Arthur, hard and hot for him.
Merlin did not know what to do, except go against the hand that held him tight, because she had never done anything like this but the last time with Arthur and no one had ever even mentioned him. He knew how it worked between man and woman lived in the country and was a friend of Will, and knew that in theory there was something to be done between man and man. At least according to the guards feel drunk. Somewhere canzonaccia he also knew how , but everything was so far away and totally different from what they were doing now.
Merlin knew what made him feel good (really good) and what made him throw his head back and scream, and knew ... Very little, he thought, as the hand of Arthur deviated the hem of his trousers and slipped under , skin against skin, tightening it with just a little too hard and too much speed.
"Move ..." He muttered quickly without being able to retain, "Arthur ... faster ..." To say his name earned him another kick, which became a wave of heat as the other movements quickened, while pushing against him.
With the other hand Arthur lifted just off the ground, allowing them to surround him with both arms, and went to replace the first. The movements became slower and less decisive, and Merlin moaned without even realizing it. It was possible that he survived so far without it?
But then again down the left hand and grazed in the erection, by tapping with the fingertips sensitive skin, and Merlin was forced to tighten his fist on the pulse of the other, planting the nails in the flesh.
"Oh ..." sighed Arthur, breathing heavily and shaking.
With frantic movements, without offset their hands they were doing something wonderful, is arranged so that each thrust of his erection would end in the furrow between the buttocks of Merlin, even through clothing and excitement recorded after the heat . The surprise lasted as long as it took Arthur to pick up the pace, holding and moving and stroking and licking it, and then it was too much and arched his Merlin head back and was gritting his teeth not to scream. He heard Arthur
remove his hand from his pants to tighten around his erection, she heard him bite his shoulder while he panted and then he heard nothing more and fell asleep. Its magic crackled in the air, just above the fair head beside him.
The next morning he was awakened by Arthur to put everything back on the horse.
"It 's already morning?"
was being a stupid question. Arthur shook his head as if he were still surprised by her stupid questions, but smiled.
Merlin is allowed to release the breath she was holding between his teeth without even knowing why. In doing so it's all in the mind and returned to the smiles bought a whole new meaning. It was not irreparable, this time. He was allowed to remember and talk about it. Maybe even do it again ....
He was not sure how to feel.
"Hello." He said then.
Arthur looked at him from above. "Hello." There was something melancholy in the eye but also something sweet and happy, and Merlin thought that everything was fine. "If we move now we should be at the Lake Or early in the afternoon. "
just nodded and stood up, this time dragging the blankets to cover their stained trousers. Arthur raised an eyebrow but did not comment.
"Do you think it will work?" When they were asked instead to mount a horse, and now seemed much more melancholy.
Merlin nodded confidently. "Gaius was safe."
Arthur nodded, looking at the ground.
just talked all day, but Arthur took the hand of Merlin had just started and this seemed to be enough for both. For Merlin was, was much more than enough. Meanwhile
enough to understand what had been circulating for months in the veins, to recognize the many small signs that had scattered and without notice, for the first time in his life, to understand what he really wanted when he had already obtained and the solution was found alone. He did not know if it was possible, or fair, but did not even really want to ask.
And Merlin knew that Arthur was an idiot incapable of looking after himself. That did not seem so comforting, but it was added that all that Merlin could do was to look after Arthur (although lately he had failed a few times, but it would be redeemed). And then he knew that if in any way that ... situation had become a mistake for Arthur, he would be able to give up.
This consoled him. But now he did not want to even think about that.
Now that the green waters of Lake Or glistened in the background, and even the love potion was no longer afraid, Merlin could afford to imagine what would happen next, when Lucan was just a silly name and all his fears only about being a servant would have been dispersed by Arthur himself. He was surprised to discover that she had imagined it quite clear that he had dreams and fantasies accurate complete and that Arthur was the star of each, as hot as the other night or how bright this morning. Always an idiot.
continued to imagine all the way, while under his fingers to Arthur's heart was beating happily.
"It seems very much a lake," said Arthur doubtfully after having tied his horse, and Merlin could not agree on which was more or less wide as the field of training.
"But the map is correct. Now we see that this one did not want Pond Or Lake and called it "looked around" better. Less space to explore for us. "
Arthur nodded, his eyes already inspecting the lake in search of plant daffodils.
"Do you think it will work," he asked suddenly.
Merlin stared at him, alarmed. "Do you remember this morning, right?"
"Sure." Arthur said, between the injured and confused, "So what?"
"What we did this morning?" Arthur shook
his head impatiently. "You nothing. I put things on the horse and I saddled and waiting patiently watched the route that you took away the stain by pa - "He stopped. Merlin did not believe he could become so red. "- You wash yourself."
"But you remember what we talked about this morning. You asked me if I thought ... "She made him sign with his hand to continue.
Arthur looked at him very badly "that work and you said yes. Merlin. I have not lost my memory. Think, I also remember that you're stupid. "
" It could happen. "Replied Merlin. Its magic ... was restless in the last hour. "However, the response is always yes. "
" But will it work ... at all? Put away any trace ... "Arthur looked troubled. He focused his eyes to the lake but had a strong line of concentration on his forehead and his lips were tight. He looked suddenly sad. Maybe he was afraid that something does not work, and that the thought of Lucan is intromettesse forever.
"Any." Confirm Merlin with perhaps more force than necessary.
Arthur finally looked at him, eyes so blue and so sad, almost extinct in spite of the Sunlight pours into everything. "I'm sorry." She whispered with no sense.
There was nothing good to expect.
Merlin shook his head, not knowing what to say. "... What?" He pulled out at the end.
"I ... I ... I'm sorry to be so. But it is not true, so better get rid of ..., no? "And Merlin
suddenly realized what had tracks that you wanted to leave Arthur. Whom. Of those who wanted to leave. And he understood also worsen the strange questions about the love potion, but it was a great consolation.
could not stop watching, even though he knew that he should turn around, get away, get away from there, because he felt that he was about to cry and cry was something I did more or less since he was ten years old.
"Yes," he said. "Sure."
He tried to play like he knows everything from the beginning, as if he had not spent the last hour to rearrange her life and now had collapsed like sand castles. Not as if he had looked and thought 'my' per scoprire dopo che era stato uno scherzo, o come se ora avesse solo voglia di raggomitolarsi e piangere.
“Era comunque sbagliato.” Disse Arthur.
“Sì.”
“Voglio dire – era solo – è chiaro che tu – ”
Aveva una voce strana. Al momento a Merlin non importava molto della sua voce. “Io niente.” Disse.
Arthur annuì come se avesse capito tutto, l’espressione chiusa e impossibile da decifrare. “Infatti. E io…”
“Pensi – il filtro? Sure. All right. "
" Probably evolves. Over time. It 'a bit' that - "
" What, "asked Merlin. Arthur
including them in a vague gesture of the hand "Did you see what he says, with Lucan. And you ... "he said, and now no longer even looking at him. "But with the flower disappears. That 's what you said. "
Merlin nodded, drained. The real problem was that, despite the hurt, was still determined to find the flower as soon as possible and to avoid unnecessary suffering. To avoid Arthur.
"Then -" he began, his voice trembling. "Start?"
Arthur gestured to go. Then he came. Merlin looked at him walking toward him and did not make a move. She looked at him while stopped his wrist with one hand, the lunettes nail whitening his wrist, and continued to watch when pushed forward and closed her eyes and kissed him.
They had never kissed, and was the most soft and yearning that Merlin had done throughout his life. It was also the saddest thing, a little 'because tears, scraping the bottom of the gorge, and a little 'because her lips parted just saw the tree swaying next to Lake
"Here." He murmured, pulling back.
Gaius had left all the instructions on the back of the map, as if to remind Merlin 'put the flower in a water bottle to soak for twelve hours' needed to see it written. It was he who crouch to the height of the petals wet to pick it up gently and remove it from the stem.
"It 's healthy." He said, without really knowing why he spoke in a low voice. "For good luck. "
Arthur, standing next to him, did not even move for a closer view. Merlin stood firm even when pushed the flower inside the bottle, and when all was ready he turned and went back to the horse.
In all this, had no right to appear even hurt.
"It seems strange that tomorrow ..." Arthur began awkwardly. "Missing little." He concluded then, why leave only half a sentence apparently was another of the countless things that a prince could not do.
"If we had not plan would have gone so over. "Merlin tried to tame the bad and desperate note in his voice, but came out anyway. "Maybe I slowed down.".
"No. Of course not, did not depend on you. Do not be stupid. "
Merlin was so tired. So furious. Wounded. "I'm not stupid. And they are useless. "
Arthur looked up, startled," I never said. "
" God, Arthur! "Laughter rang sad to his own ears," That filter must have you got your full, eh? "
Expression of Arthur, until then just tired and wary, he froze. "- What?"
"I'm just saying, well, I repeat that I am a fool about three times a day. Four public holidays. I understand the filter and everything, but you can not expect you to believe when you deny. "
" You know I do not think so. "
Merlin lifted his chin. "Tell me again tomorrow, maybe I do."
"Merlin. I do not think you're stupid. "
The problem was, he thought Merlin shaking his head because he felt star falling apart, the problem was that he could also play convincingly. Nothing had ever done so much evil in his life.
"And you're not useless."
Merlin chuckled again, still not decided, at least trying to save face. "We'll talk tomorrow, okay?"
"It's not the filter." Arthur could be stubborn in the worst moments.
"All right!"
"Good."
"Good."
"Do not say it as if I did not believe! I'm telling you that - "
" Arthur. We are tired. I'm tired. I have no strength to argue with you, okay? "
" We are not discussing "
" But you're screaming, "Merlin
felt mad, had also to be yelling because it was blocked here, in this place forgotten by the world waiting for a fucking flower should carry off everything. Arthur was an idiot, he really was. Merlin more than anyone had ever known, and was able to skip to the feelings of others without realizing it, but it was ... he wanted to. Really, he wanted to.
"Merlin ..."
"What are we doing?"
Arthur looked at him as if it were obvious. "We are waiting." They fell asleep
turned toward each other without touching.
The dawn was clear and pink, without being cold colors. Merlin waited while Arthur opened his eyes and murmured words to the bottle: his magic flowed out, grateful for the issue, acknowledged that the aim was to Arthur and tighten around the enchanting flower water.
Arthur had eyelashes long, or maybe it was just a shadow flickering while the other would wake up and open his eyes. Neither was able to talk, the morning was too bright to risk anything. Arthur reached out to take the remedy from the hands of Merlin.
Just before drinking, already removing the cap, leaned forward and touched her lips just slightly open mouth of Merlin. Merlin pushed forward, but Arthur had already retreated. He was already drinking.
"Is it working?"
Arthur nodded, keeping his eyes closed and smacking his lips as if to savor the filter.
Merlin looked at him, unsure and desperate. "What should I do? I ask you something ... whether it is past? "
" Okay. "
" Okay. "Merlin took a deep breath," You ... you miss him? Feel anything? "
" No. "
" And ... what about me? "
Arthur opened his eyes, and Merlin he hastened to add" Forget it. "
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